It’s funny how dreams seem limitless and how they can teach you so much. But I’ve also found out that they can teach limitations. Now honestly I struggle with limits. Being an optimist I think that problems can be solved, situations will be fixed and that evolutions will occur. Sometimes I don’t know my limitations, I don’t know if my optimism hazes my vision, or that I learned to push through my perceived limits but I must learn to accept them. Examples of this would be how I gave myself plantar faciitis by running too far (before I trained for it), tried to do martial arts when I was on 2nd shift (really couldn’t do both schedules at the same time), or tried to cram a 40 hr/wk chemistry class with a 40 hr/wk theater class (and two more classes at the same time while working part time). I sometimes just can’t to it which is reasonable.
In my life right now I’m at a point where I’m changing spiritually and am trying to grow to my potential. Growing is not always an easy or fast process but overall it is so rewarding. I’m getting past a stage in my life where I wasn’t changing or growing much, just staying stagnant. It was really hurting my spirit and I am so happy I decided to make changes in my life. I am on a dynamic path forward and much healthier for it. I’m learning new things about myself both psychologically and spiritually because I dared to walk forward.
Now dreams and symbolism have affected and are affecting my life significantly. I’ve had interesting self discoveries because I was able to see the connection between what is going on in my life and what my self perceived in my dream world. But an interesting lesson was revealed to me that I am not yet ready for certain endeavors. Let me share one dream that taught me this.
I was in my front yard and had 5 friends/companions with me. We then walked over to the neighbors yard where there was this pond measuring maybe 10ftX10ft, which actually seemed like a well. This well was very deep, probably 100ft or more and at the bottom was an underground cavern. My friends and I were searching for something, almost on a quest and decided to try and search for something down the well. But this being a very deep place, you couldn’t just go down there. You needed to raise your spiritual energy level to a certain point to be able to “fly” to the bottom. So this group of us did that, we gathered energy (which we thought was enough) and plunged in. At the bottom, there was a cavern the size of a room, which then lead deeper into other caverns. In this immediate room we did not see what we were looking for. There was an empty treasure chest, but that’s not where our item was. Unfortunately we underestimated the amount of energy we needed to continue on to the other caverns so we “flew” back to the top, outside the pond.
When I woke up the next day I knew there was a lot here. At first I didn’t remember what we were looking for. I had to meditate on this for a bit, but asking help from my higher self reminded me that we were searching for some mystic artifact. Like a gold lotus with a jewel in the center. What I realized was that this pond or well, was actually like diving deeper into my unconscious. Exploring deeper into myself. The fact that I was able to get down the well taught me that I am at a level that can only get me so deep. My spiritual energy level in the dream wasn’t enough to let me explore the rest of the cavern. I take from this that spiritually I’ve come a long way but not yet ready for some of the next lessons.
I have to accept this. I may be at a point where I’m growing, but I can’t take on the world yet. I’ve reconnected with my spirituality and learning but I’ve only come so far. I need to be patient with myself and understand that I’m not some kind of superman that can do anything. I need to grow and train and build up to my future potential. Just like I needed to for running long distance, just like I needed to when I was doing weight training. Gains will come but only in a realistic time frame.
But, just like every spring when I start my cross country routine the hills get easier. My first spring run is so hard because the hills are so tall! How will I get up the hills and across the park!? Then the second run goes better, and the third is far easier. By mid spring I’m back to normal and the rest of spring and summer I can set new personal records. It always gets easier and always gets better. But at least I have dreams to sometimes tell me what I can and cannot do which is nice to have more teachers. Listen to your dreams, they may be trying to help you.